Overlooked

Holidays and weekends are times that everyone longs to come quickly. Being single and the odd one out, they are the thing I dread most in life.

Not only does it emphasise how alone I am, but the compounded year on year failure to fit in comes to the fore BIG style. From a very young age I haven't fitted in.

My tears don't stop at the moment with loneliness and a sense of failure with life.Why am I so unlovable? My world is getting smaller and smaller. I've compromised on so much now, I feel guilty about having an opinion about anything. I'm never the one that people invite automatically. Bring an after thought in life is so hard and cruel.

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up to this misery any more. The dog is the only thing that stops me from dying.