It's a downward spiral. You feel low, so you back off for a bit. You realise then that you're the one who puts in the effort with your friend's as they don't get in touch.
Loneliness grows and it's harder to break out from it. The older you get, the worse it feels. Life isn't worth being alive for when there isn't anything positive around you.
You think it's an okay day, then your achilles heel comes to bite you. No break from work. Feeling tired and exhausted all of the time. Chaotic surroundings, lack of concentration, no inclination to be bothered with living. It's all too much effort and for what?
Another week, month, year of no progress apart from physically ageing, mentally feeling worse, a vast sense of failure and looking like an old hag.
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