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Sunday, 1 July 2012

To stop in your tracks and really think about what you're doing with your life is a tough one. Where am I going, what am I doing, who am I?

My dreams have fallen onto empty ground, time has past by too late. I really don't fit in anywhere. People think I'm popular and happy go lucky. It's the opposite in real life. Very lonely, the person people tend not to remember or consider important.

My surroundings are chaotic and disorganised like my mind. I never finish off a job I've started. I don't have a place to call my own anymore, somewhere to put my mark on and put some roots down. I crave stability and support so very much, yet it is now further away than its ever been. I don't think I'll ever manage it and there's no one I can tell. The lows come more rapidly now and take longer to dissolve. I don't even feel like I'm treading water, just stuck in my ever decreasing circle of life whilst everyone else's carries on with drive, motivation and ambition. I haven't anything positive to offer. I never thought my world could get any smaller and still it does.

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