The bubble of life - May

A day where my head could explode. Felt like an egg with sperm trying to force their way in from every angle. So many female hormones vying for attention amongst each other ... the volume levels increased to ridiculous level. Very poor communication with people talking over each other and not having the sense or maturity to let the other finish their sentence before butting in.

I heard a phrase this morning ... fail to plan and you're planning to fail. That's how it feels right now.

Is as it is

The strange feeling of being alive but feeling completely dead. Being overwhelmed by people, each having their own reason and cure the low. No one is able to accept that it just is as it is.

Drowning in a raging sea

There's a terrible isolation and feeling of failure for what I call life. If I strip out my job and my dog, there's is nothing else left. Life is racing by me as though I'm not part of it. Will anyone ever love me and see me as their special one? I fear I'm too late; that fear is like drowning in a raging sea any not being able to come up for air.